by Karma Henderson
I gave you my heart body mind and soul
In exchange I asked for honesty,
Understanding, affection and wisdom and happiness
Yet in return I get happiness
Heartbreak lies and conflict
I thought I made you happy
Your words say I do
Yet some of your actions show otherwise
Am I wrong for finally putting up
Boundaries that I failed to set in the beginning?
Am I wrong for trying to unteach lessons
I chose to accept?
I was so love struck that I chose
To ignore all the red sequences of flashing lights
I’m sorry for loving you unconditionally the way you are
Without teaching you the right way to love me
I’m sorry the physical and mental
Distance between us was to rigid and infeasible for you
For I thought our spiritual and unconditional
Love for one another was enough to keep us bound
But I have terribly mistaken our connection
It was not strong enough to withstand
The trials and tribulations of Change
Explanation is all I ask yet it’s not given
Am I not deserving of such?
I can’t even blame you for the way you treat me
Because I treat myself this way
As well by allowing you to treat me this way
Showing you it’s okay
Maybe if I had more self-love and admiration
For myself we could have work maybe
If I was more strong willed and bold
We woulda lasted, so no
I’on hate you nor blame you
I blame myself so please don’t think
You’re in the wrong, it’s fa’sho my fault
I guess this starts a new chapter to my life and yours
With mines I gotta learn to love me
And be happy alone because
If ion love myself nobody will love me
So in a way you helped me, so thank you
You have showed me what I need
To improve and what I need to throw away
I guess you were right
No explanation helps me in a way.
Karma Henderson
Karma Henderson is 16 years old. She hopes one day to be a radiologist. Her interests are photography and helping others.